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Following your heart



During the last few days, I noticed an increased number of messages that went along the line of "follow your heart" or "trust what your heart is telling you".  A fortune cookie I opened today (a real one, i.e. not online) told me: "Do what you have been longing to do". This makes me wonder: Is it always right to follow your heart?

Of course, I can see the point in all the positive messages that would like to encourage people to trust in their own heart, in their beliefs and their dreams. I used to be someone who believed that the heart is a very important guide and that it could take you into the right direction. But now I am not so sure about it anymore because my heart is telling me things that can't be.

I will not tell you what it is in my heart as it is a long story and it is not something I would want to share with too many people (even though this blog is not very frequented, there will always be some visitors who are strangers to me and my world). What I can tell you, however, is this: During the last few days, I have meditated a lot more than I usually do - and it seemed to be so much harder than it usually is. I also just sat down and asked myself: "What do I TRULY want?" I did not like the answers very much because they made me feel selfish.

The problem is that my heart is giving me very strong message about what I should do - about what it wants me to do, but right now I feel like my heart is a traitor and that it's not a very intelligent being at all. How should one deal with it if the dream you would like to come true is on one hand real but on the other hand something you can't ever reach?

I know, that this time I can't and mustn't listen to my heart because it would only bring trouble. No matter what I would try, I can not get to the place where my heart would like me to be. So why do people always tell others to listen to your heart if it's just not the right thing to do? And how can you tell your heart to stop dreaming and hoping?

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